It’s All in My Head
I’ve lost 25 lbs since April. I didn’t feel overweight, fat or obese back then. I was content. But boy, oh boy, do I feel super-heavy, super-big now.
Isn’t that odd?
I can now wear clothes I had buried in the closet, because they wouldn’t fit before. I can confidently say I look better.
Yet, I’m uncomfortable, like I don’t look good enough. It is a bizarre, strange, almost there feeling.
My Mom likes to say some people look better with more weight. She gets scared when I start dropping the pounds. I can lose a lot when I want to. I calmly tell her I’d just like to wear all the clothes in my wardrobe. I tell her it’s for my health, which is true.
It’s rough looking at a closet full of clothes and complaining, “I have nothing to wear!”
The oddest thing is that because it is the middle of the summer, this is the easiest time for me to drop the pounds. The real challenge will be when it gets cold.
Am I set to lose more? Yes, I am.
Top of the Morning
I walk for an hour every morning, sometimes more, before it gets stinking miserable hot. I’ll be back at the gym come September. I was in there almost daily from April to June, but my personal trainer suggested I go outside for a bit – change my routine. I was hitting a plateau.
I’ll tell you what gets me going as well: green teas (hot or cold) and my morning blend drinks with spoonfuls of yogurt. I like making strawberry and blueberry drinks with yogurt, or just banana-carrot drinks. People make a face when I tell them about the banana-carrot combo. But don’t knock it until you’ve tried it: bananas are all sugary.
And doesn’t everybody eat the two together in cakes?
Lunch and dinner is a toss-up. I still eat whatever I want. I just make sure I know the exact amount of calories I consume.
Followed by lots of water.
I don’t sweat over mid-week fluctuations of 3-5lbs. I know that’s just water retention, or not cleansing out my system properly.
In case you are wondering: I can now wear those tight, straight legged, size 12 jeans.